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Happy?
Apr 9, 2013 17:15:32 GMT -5
Post by Lunabella on Apr 9, 2013 17:15:32 GMT -5
Day after day after day after day, I smile. I laugh. I go around acting like everything is alright. But each night I cry. I feel guilty because I preferred seeing everyone unhappy. I was needed then. When they are unhappy they talk to me. But they are becoming happy again. I only have one that actually talks to me most days. Then other days I am alone. I watch TV or read trying to leave these memories. Trying to leave. I am going back again, every night my mind goes back to him and every night I lose him. why was I so stupid to let him leave? Why is it the only person I ever told that I am in love with him leaves? I'm alone. Sure I have friends, and my friends are great but they can never know. They would never be able to heal me on the inside. So I act happy. I smile, I laugh. I act how I used to. I don't believe in love. If you believe that lie then you really don't know me. The problem is I will never be truly happy again because he is gone. Everyday I don't have distractions he comes back to me. I was in love with him. I still am. But it doesn't matter. He is gone now. So I will be happy. I will act happy. I will be happy. I will act happy. I will be happy. I will act happy. I will be happy. I will act happy. I will be happy. i will act happ...
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