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Post by Lunabella on Apr 23, 2012 5:30:52 GMT -5
Never have I been so afraid. I allowed myself to open and now he drops the bomb.
"I just so happy"
"Why?"
"Because of you"
Which was enought to give me butterflies but then i had to press on and try to warn him of may nature. I am not a person you want to have around. I will end up hurting everyone I love and care about so ofcourse i say
"But i still dont understand why. Im not a person that makes others happy"
"You are to me"
"Im a big mistake i hope you know that"
"Everything in my life has been a mistake except this."
Which shuts me up as the butterflies got worse. How did i let him get a grip on one of my already shattered pieces. Can this all have been just a game for him where i just ended up being trapped inbetween confusion and fear before tripping over the little stone of happiness? Can this possibly have been real on his part? Can I have him like I want to? What will happen?
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Post by Jessa Knight on Apr 23, 2012 11:35:10 GMT -5
You want an answer?
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Post by Lunabella on Apr 24, 2012 16:33:13 GMT -5
No because i already know he will never like me that way and that even if i want him to itll end in a broken me
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Post by Jessa Knight on Apr 25, 2012 14:35:36 GMT -5
You didn't need to answer.
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Post by Lunabella on Apr 25, 2012 22:26:36 GMT -5
you asked a question and i answered truthfully. honestly it might be the fact that emotionally im confused or the fact that ive been unable to sleep withought nightmares for at least a week now that has made me delusional and idiotic but im not yet sure. all i do know is that inside my mind the only thing that keeps repeating is the opposite of wha peopl tell me. i say i will be alone forever and other sa i need to be patient. but i know that i will never beable to express exactly what i want or how i feel 100% s why try?
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Post by Jessa Knight on May 4, 2012 12:02:12 GMT -5
The more you talk like that the more I wanna hit you upside the head.
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Post by Lunabella on May 8, 2012 20:00:26 GMT -5
Sorry.
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Post by Jessa Knight on May 9, 2012 23:00:51 GMT -5
I was just being truthful.
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Post by Lunabella on May 10, 2012 19:13:58 GMT -5
So was I... I'm getting over it now if it makes you feel any better.
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