Post by Jessa Knight on Mar 15, 2013 0:02:36 GMT -5
This is who I really am huh. I such a coward and don't want to be left alone. I don't wanna feel like I'm in second place. For all those who must know My fear is not being kissed again on will power. Not being loved without asking. I had a pain my chest for days now and I feel hollow and it wont go away. I honestly hate it, I go to sleep feeling alone so I gotta have my toys there to make me feel better. I feel alone and cold and I thought I was past this but probably gonna lock myself back up like before and I hate doing it but how else should it be? Tell people and get pity. That's all people see in tears is pity and "I been there." People talk and eats away more and I want to just just run in the middle of road and cry. Oh how I hate to amite it but I been tempter to walk in the middle of the road and not care. I hate myself like you have idea and I wont get into that. Anyways since my venting seems to make people sad or made at me I guess I'm going back to my old ways of venting, heck who's gonna stop me right? All I want is to held while I sleep but I can't have that now. Yeah not for a long while at least.
Well goodbye my rant site and maybe if/when I can draw or write again I will see you...
Oh and for those who asked asked the blood stained rag and Shower as best friends the answer there is a rag to whip the tears away and a shower to hide the tear. and who know something else even...
But now I must behave and stop my venting before I make it worst. I learned to open up but what I really need is
Well goodbye my rant site and maybe if/when I can draw or write again I will see you...
Oh and for those who asked asked the blood stained rag and Shower as best friends the answer there is a rag to whip the tears away and a shower to hide the tear. and who know something else even...
But now I must behave and stop my venting before I make it worst. I learned to open up but what I really need is